Category Archives: court reform

PTSD is Real

My heart is breaking I see you disassociating I see the fear in your eyes The sea is not calm and your heart is broken You hear noises, but they remind you of the past and not the present You … Continue reading

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Parental Alienation Syndrome or DV by Proxy?

Through my journey with Landry I have had learned several things I never intended to know about mainly: PTSD, parental alienation, domestic violence by proxy and Cluster B personality disorders and a horrible court system.  We have navigated these uncertain … Continue reading

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Breaking the Silence- The Final Act

So this will be my last piece on my former physical and sexual domestic violence.  I am still entrenched in trauma as we share Landry together and their have been multiple emotional, verbal and psychological traumas and domestic disturbances.  He … Continue reading

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Breaking the Silence- Act II

This piece is a continuation of the Breaking the Silence Blogs. He left from college and I began to see a different person.  He got on medicines for depression and I thought he was changing.  It was hard being apart, … Continue reading

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Silence

I am shuddered by silence. I can hear a pin drop. Words cannot describe the silence. I just want to scream, but no words come out. My tears are my words. I cannot fathom the so many why’s. I am … Continue reading

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Grief

When I describe this word, writer’s block hits me.  So many words I want to say, but so hard to say.  I am back to denial again, but not with myself.  I have accepted what happened to me, but I … Continue reading

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Heartbroken

I feel heartbroken.  Giving up a life I never imagined, but watching a child go through the very life I gave up to protect that child. I feel guilty.  I feel as though I am a horrible mother.  How could … Continue reading

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